Monday, January 31, 2005

HELLO WORLD! I'm back! Back to the world of Internet! Back to the world of leaches! Back to the world of blogging! Back to the world of having info at your fingertips! Back to the world of hacking! Back to the world of mp3s! Back to the world of free downloads! Back to the world of porn! Ya! I'm back! Back till the next time my comp goes "crashed" on me again....

Wat a month without Internet. At first, I really thought tat I'll really like die without hearing the sound of typing on my keyboard. Tat I'll suffer from serious withdrawal from the net. But hey! I'm still alive! And not in some rehab center meant for Internet junkies. Wow! Won't tat be the day ya guys?

Man! I'm like being missing for so long tat I've lost touch of blogging...it seems so weird now, to hear my thoughts being typed out onto the screen. And I seem to have like lost all my phasing and words and stuff....man! Wat a way to start off my blog.... :P

But then again, thinking back, tis past month without Internet, I feel like I'm reborn in a way....tat I can actually carry on living in a world without Internet. :P lame rite guys! ? :P but yeah...to be cut off from the internet oso teaches me some stuff at the same time...to start off ya...I dun have to so called entertain ppl, dun have to face certain ppl, which is good....cause I can search for that freaking thing called "inner peace: which ya...is still a bit crap shit to moi...Well, I did lived in a world where there was 486 computers before, I lived in a world where there's no such thing called internet before. So why should I need them now? Perhaps ease of life I would say. Or maybe there's more to it then I can think of. Well then...I’ll ponder upon the issue and maybe just feedback you guys ya? :)

And another thing, if this past month is a dream, I'll still wish for it to be a dream and tat I'll never have to wake up again in tis hash and feeling less world. Yup...indeed such a nice and wonderful month it has been. Hee! Only a few words can sum up the past month..."God-sent" "Wow!" "Yummy!" Hhhhmmm...any more? Hahaha! I guess these 3 words are more then enough to sum everything up! *Wink* *wink!* u get wat I mean dun you? :)

Wat more can I say? I got wat I wanted. If ever there is a god. (It's god darling...it's either him or her. Not it. :P Tats why it rained remember?) And to Esther, sorry my dear if u chance upon tis someday, I've found someone better then u. I know tat u'll be happy for me. Cause tats wat u wan for me, but sorry to say tis, she's better then you. Hee! But nevertheless, a really big thank you to u Esther, for injecting patience and calm into me, for teaching me how to be a better man. For making me see tat there is still a rainbow somewhere out there for everyone. For making me know tat in the end, meiting is all but just a stepping-stone for you. And tat I've been deceiving myself time and time again for the whole of last year. Tats why I can't commit in any way, and tat every time I see her, I see you instead. Which I know tat u hated tat rite? Wahahah! Ya ya ya! I know tat u're much more slimmer then her! I'll give u tat! And tat I oso made a very big and serious mistake. Tat I lied to myself and told myself tat I loved her. Which is not true for me. The truth is tat all tis while, I'm taking her for you in my eyes. Every time I see meiting, there is no her, all there is was you. And ya...looking back at all the postings from last year, it was indeed a big laugh for me, now tat I look back upon it. It was all but a big spite here and there. I just let my anger gets the better of me. Man! Wat a way to pass year 2004! Wasted all tat u've said on me. But then again, thanks gal! Thanks for making see all that and more gal...I own u one! Or perhaps a lot more! :)

Anyways, I'm running quite now, so I'll stop here for tis evening and tat I'll continue with it at nite I guess. Gonna head to Chinatown to do some Chinese new year soaking in shopping! And to have Chinese food! Yummy!

Later guys and gals!

- +hello world!+
Scribbled by Amateur Shutterbug @ 5:40 PM

Friday, January 14, 2005

ok....here i'm...sitted on a chair at changi airport T1 waiting for my flight...i'm promise to blog ppl....it's just tat my comp is really down and tat i can't find a way to fix it just yet...so sas i was saying...here i am, sitted in a chair, watching ppl walked by, runned by, and just doing their own stuff. wat am i here? hmmm......i would say tat i just wanna get away....wanna to go to a place tat no body knows me....i wanna fly away.....somehow, F.I.R song, fly away, was playing over and over in my head....

well........till my return guys and gals.....have fun and take care...

- +fly away...+
Scribbled by Amateur Shutterbug @ 7:13 PM

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

jus a poem refered to by a fren feels tat it's quite...

People thinks that I m silly,
To hold on something not so worthy.
They even think it’s a pity,
That I wouldn't face the reality.
It’s the feeling that I’m seeking,
If I deny my true feelings,
Then its me myself tat i'm cheating.
Hence… I keep on waiting…
Its true he once hurt me deep,
But he too gave me the love I need..
So I won’t admit my defeat,
Stand up,n dance with the music to the beat.
Yet autumn after autumns, spring after springs,
Time passes, just in a wink…
He was mine, only in dreams,
The dreams were sweet,
like cookies n cream!!
One day he called,
“its just another chat” I thought,
He said, “I feel for you”,
THAT gave me a shock!!~
Was it April fool’s day?
I realized its not,
I felt as if I’d conquered the mountain top!
He asked if I was willing to wait.
Leaving the relationship to the fate.
He hopes by then its not too late,
To make up for his past mistakes….
Dear fate, play me out not,
I really love him lots n lots...
give us the chance to b together again,
its the only cure to my greatest pain...

- +from a fren to me+
Scribbled by Amateur Shutterbug @ 4:46 PM